No Hate Crime
I have been an active person in promoting if that is the right word, to get rid of HATE CRIME, after my self and my partner Dean where attacked for being Gay and living together as a married couple, we where so proud of our wedding / Civil Partnership that we had it put into the Local paper like a straight couple do, so why not if they can why can’t we.
When we did we had no idea that people would re-act like they did and from this we ended up moving home, we did report it to the police but nothing came from it so didn’t bother after that.
However that was a few years back and things have changed for the best so if your a victim of hate crime or know of anyone who is, please note that there are so many other people out there who are victims of hate crime and find it hard to report it, but there is help out there and so many ways of reporting it.
So What you class as hate crime.
Hate Crimes happen because of hostility, prejudice or hatred of:
- disability
- gender identity
- race, ethnicity or nationality
- religion or belief
- sexual orientation.
They include things like name calling and verbal abuse, bullying and harassment, spitting and physical attacks, damage to property, graffiti, and written notes, emails and text messages.
Click here for the stop hate crime site where you can report a crime.
There are 3rd Party reporting in some areas of UK too.
But if it’s urgent then ring 999.
Hate Crime is level 2 in the police response and that means they will try and respond within a few hours.
So don’t be a victim any more report it and help stamp out hate crime.
Wayne
XxX
Daily Blog 4th – 11th Jan 2010
Monday
Well today Dean has been helping Emma and Mikela move flat and I looked after there cats at our home and at same time wait for a delivery to arrive, so been a very boring day really.
Been doing my CBB Blog during the day so you can keep up to date with my CBB news here
Well got a bit on tomorrow so happen today being boring was a blessing for me.
Night
X
Tuesday
Well woke up this morning to snow every where even thou our local forecast was rain and frost, and onces again Britain has snow Britain comes to a stand still, the schools in our area have all been closed, rail services disrupted.
So yes it’s Cold and bloody wet and that just in the bedroom he he he, No serious this snow is bad here in UK we are right on the coast with Morecambe Bay and it’s like being in the Antartic at times with the bitter cold and icy wind with the snow.
What I can’t understand is why is it when the UK gets snow the rail and roads come to a halt, it’s not like we never ever had snow in the 2000 years we been on earth, anyway on the News they say it going to get worse and be like it way into late January
And what about Us Brits going out and panic buying in the supermarkets and buying loads of cat litter to spread over there drive ways.
Snow or no Snow I needed to go to the doctors and it took us nearly 1 hour to walk there where normally it takes about half hour, but got there in the end.
Well the doctor has put me on some new medications so that another 1 to add to my collection.
Epilim 200mg (2 Daily)
Mirtazapine 30mg (1 at Night)
Tramadol Hydrochloride 50mg (8 Daily)
Meloxicam 7.5 mg (1at Night)
Amitriptyline 10mg (1 at Night)
Paracetamol 500mg (8 Daily)
Tolterodine 4mg (1 at Night)
Omerprazole 20mg (2 Daily)
Creaon 100000mg (8 Daily)
Movicol 13.8g (When Needed)
Ventolin 100 (2 puffs Daily)
Nasofan Aqueous (4 puffs Daily)
Any way off to bed to keep warm.
Night
X
Wednesday
Well didn’t wake up till 13.oo (1pm) this is due to me taking my new medication last night, took it around 22.00hrs (10pm) and within about an hour I was fast asleep and then next thing I knew it was the following day and afternoon.
But thats 1st time I have had a good nights sleep in a long time so not bothered.
Today we recieved a nice call today regarding a new house / home can’t say too much until after tomorrow when they ring us back.
This evening went to Morrisons with our friends Sarah and Mick has we need to stay home tomorrow until we have recieved that important phone call.
Another Snowy and Cold day here in Morecambe like many parts in the county and on the news they say it’s going to get worse as we head to the weekend.
Off to bed now.
Night
X
Thursday
Well we stayed in all day today has we was waiting on that important phone call, and it didn’t come till after 17.00hrs (5pm) anyway it was good news and now we meeting them on Monday hope the good news continues.
But going to the area to look tomorrow to see what its like hope it’s nice and what we want.
Apart from that we not done much or been anywhere so not lot to say tonight sorry !!!
Good Night
X
1st Jan 2010 – 4th Jan 2010
Friday 1st January 2010
Hi well 2010 has finally arrived, another decade and hopefully a new start for Me and Dean
Thank you to Sheila Nolan and Andy Young for doing a great new years party and this was the 1st party me and Dean have been to for New Year Eve, it was a great night Thanks Again.
Well today as you would espect we have chilled out after last night, went to the Emmersons to let off a Lantern for New Year and also for Loved Ones who no longer with us.
I hope this year is a great year for you.
Love Wayne
Night
X
Saturday
Well after having a restless night and feeling very dry all night, we got up and went to a friend Edith to drop her birthday card off for tomorrow 74 tomorrow she is but acts like 54 no flys on her.
Then off into town and Dean saw his sister Michelle after quite some time, she said hello and Dean had to look twice I couldn’t believe how much she looked like Dean, she just started at High School so growing up fast, it was nice to see her and made Deans day and put a big smile on his face.
This evening we uploaded the Video from yesterday doing the lighting of Lanterns round at Sarahs for my Mum and Sarah’s Nana see the video here
We watched the last too Doctor Who’s with David Tenant in on Sky plus and what a brillant end it was too, I personaly feel they should of ended it there with it being called The End Of Time instead they done a new series with Matt Smith has the new Doctor will wait and see.
Well off to bed now good night
X
Sunday
Well today we just chilled out today watching Davina McCall Night she is presenting Got to Dance on Sky 1 at 6pm and 7pm tonight which me and Dean along with some friends went to watch in Manchester while filming, and it was good to be there too, so when we watching it tonight we saw ourselves on TV and good to watch both programmes tonight some brilliant dancers and some crap ones too.
And the she is back tonight with Big Brother the Celebrate show CBB see my blog for CBB here
Night
X
Now go to Next week here
Dec 28th 2009 – 31st Dec 2009
Monday
Well 1st Day of this end of year 2009 and begining of 2010 blog.
Today we went into Lancaster to see the sales and get afew bargins but there wasn’t much on, just got 2 books from Waterstones, wonder if there will be more on sale after 1st Jan.
Well still in Christmas Mood so not staying on to long.
Night
X
Tuesday
Well went shopping today for a few bits before the New Year of 2010 and how I am looking forward to it too, and you know after all these years some people still find it hard to accept me, but you know years or months I have just let it go and still became part of the circle if you get me, so now I am not bothered accept me or not it’s up to them because I am not going out of my way anymore to try and fit in. I have my Partner Dean who is my lover, best friends, soul mate, confidont, my little Fido and some bloody brilliant friends who have been there for years and been there when I have needed them and that is all that matters to me now.
Off to bed now.
Night
X
Wednesday
Today we went to see New Moon at Vue in Lancaster finally and I did feel it was very slow to start with and was a bit disapointed with it has really thought it would have been 110% better than the 1st Twilight films.
Well tomorrow is New Years Eve so that means final day of 2009 and final day of the 1st Decade of the New Millennium and I have put together my best and worst of the decade
My Personal view on The Things of the Noughtiest 2000 till 2010
Best films, The Saw & Evil Resident Films, Dan Brown Films (Da Vinci Code)
Best songs, James Blunt “Your Beautiful” Will Young “Evergreen”
Best Dramas, Red Ridings C4, Whitechapel ITV1
Best TV, the Bill, Doctor Who, Spooks & Torchwood
Best Comedy, Catharine Tate Sketch Shows (Nan) & Little Britain
Worst mistake, Both Iraq & Afghanistan Wars &
Worst person/people, Gordon Brown, Karen Matthews & the New Pope
Saddest part, Maddy McCann going missing, All the Stabbings in the UK & All the Soldiers being killed
And My Personal Highs & Lows
Best, Meeting Dean, Getting Married and Meeting new friends
Worst, Getting Married 1st time around (to a female)
Saddest, My Mum Dying in 2000
Ongoing Part, still being ill
Well I will now say good night and wish you all the very best for 2010 and hope you have a safe and happy new years eve.
Good Nightand Good Bye 2009
xXx
Daily Blog 21st Dec – 27th Dec 2009
Monday
4 days till Christmas day
Well 1st day of Christmas Week, this week will officially be the worst and stressful week for lots of people trying to get last minute gifts.
Well up early as had to travel from Morecambe to Manchester and back again for a hospital appointment, my friend Emma C was driving and I did feel sorry for her as on the way the snow was bad and the motorway was bad with this., it took around 2 and half hours to get to Manchester.
We arrived ok and going to get the ticket for the car Dean went flat on his ass couldn’t help but laugh sorry babe love you loads.
I had to go to the new Royal Manchester Children’s Hospital and I will be honest I felt un-comfortable being 37 years old and sat in a childrens hospital but will have to get used to it because that where the Cleft Palate and Lip Unit is now.
Well they said at the hospital I was OK but slightly concerned that my left side of my cleft may be opening up AGAIN but I say if it is then tough I am NOT going through any more operations on my Cleft unless its really necessary to have it done.
Now resting up as got another busy day tomorrow with Dean.
Night
X
Tuesday
Another day nearer to to Christmas, today is Tuesday and woke up to the snow even though we seen it last night. 
Well today we went to the Cemetery to put Christmas flowers on my mum’s grave and because of the snow it looked very nice for a cemetery, but also very slippery too, after there me and Dean continued our walk in the snow to the doctors for Deans appointment and then back home which was a nightmare as it was later in the day and the temp had dropped and every where had started to ice over, and trying to walk up and down hills not good….
Now chilling ready for tomorrow’s Royal Lancaster Infirmary visit so not looking for to that, I am having a Urodynamic Test, where they stick tubes up inside your penis into your bladder.
So will say Night and hope it’s not as bad with the snow tomorrow.
Night
X
Wednesday
Well was up early today because has you know I was at The Royal Lancaster Infirmary for my Urodynamic Test and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone laying on a trolley bed showing all my bottom half with 2 females (they where very nice but would have pervered males for obvious reason) stood there is bad enough, but then have 2 tubes stuck trough your Japs Eye of my Penis direct into my bladder (this called a japs eye due to the similarity between the shape of the stereotypical eye and that the opening on the penis is much like a slit) and then another tube up my back passage to my bowel, and then having water pumped direct into my bladder I tell you it was so uncomfortable and stinging alot this was due to the anesthetic injected into my penis before hand.
After the test they said it will hurt for a few days and will be hard to wee, well yeah I would have thought that and to drink plenty of fluids to prevent infection.
Anyway went shopping after for last bits for the big day which is only 2 days off, today is the last offical working day as tomorrow there is lots of places on half day work.
I will blog tomorrow which is Christmas Eve and then will be after Boxing day has spending time with my lovely partner Dean and dear friends.
Night
X
Thursday
Well today is Christmas Eve today and everything is all go, the Turkey and Pork is cook and veg is ready and we ready, presents wrapped up and we all ready now. My brilliant and loving partner Dean did a lovely thing he got a Lantern lit you for my late mum Maureen Clifford. So on that lovely note please all have a Merry Christmas and a wonderful Holiday in the US.
Night X
Christmas Day to Sunday 27th
Well Happy Christmas to you all and hope you all had a great time, well I must of been good because Santa was good to me and I got what I wanted more Bling and watches, don’t think I got anything I didn’t need this year.
Dean was happy well over the moon with his present from me a E Reader and loads of E Books, after we opened our presents and may I just say Thank you to all those who sent Cards, presents and E Cards, we got ready to go to the Emmerson for Dinner.
We went to the Emmerson who are Sarah & Mick, the 2 children are Hannah and Ashley around 11am and we had a great meal which me and Dean cooked as no room in our home for all of us so went to theres for it.
Watched TV, listerned to Music, Played games but most of all had a brilliant time and such a laugh, this is what Christmas is about.
Boxing Day
Spent most of it getting ready for our party this evening, doing food and drink, Hannah and Dean and Myself did it all and the party went with a bang, another good party had by the Clintons.
Would like to thank the following for a brilliant Christmas.
My Babe Dean Clinton without a doubt.
Sarah, Mick, Hannah and Ashley Emmerson
Amanda Busby and Samantha Busby
Emma Cuthbertson and Mikela McKie
Sheila Nolan and Andy Young
Mark and Jackie Spraggett
Tamara DeSilver, Alex and Alara
Amanda Taylor
Janet Greenwood
Tess and Steve
And to everyone else who sent cards and gifts and I hoped you all had a great Christmas too.
Sunday
We Spent chilling and watching TV, well I did but Dean slept most of it with an hangover.
Well thats it for another year just got New Year to look forward to now.
Night
XXX
Go to next week here
14th – 20th Dec 2009 Daily Blog
Monday
Well this is the final full week before Christmas and New Year, so come Friday some people will be glad has Work finishes and School ends until Jan 2010.
But Spare a thought for those who aren’t so lucky to be off over Christmas and also the Army lads and lasses who are serving in Iraq – Afganistan
Also just a thought that over the X Factor final weekend ITV earned quote from the Times online “ Cowell also co-produces X Factor and Britain’s Got Talent, shows that have saved ITV. The estimated cost of a 30-second advertising slot during the weekend’s X Factor final?” now we in a credit crunch and they making over a million pound for every set of adverts.
Well today we went into town wasn’t put long has weather not too good and besides that I am not feeling to good my self my back and legs playing up AGAIN!!! becoming too much again and getting me depressed, going to try and get into see doctors next week.
Well its off to bed again dosen’t seem that long since I got up.
Night
X
Tuesday
Not much to say today been in bed most of it come down with a cold so need to get rid of it before my 2 hospital apointments next week.
Had the Twitter appilcation removed from my website has it was not working right and made it look like my website was down.
Wednesday
Still got cold so staying in the warm again today, Dean at his Charity work today till 3pm so just relaxing.
Thursday
Well not up to much again today apart from shopping with Amanda and Dean for the last bits of stuff for the year, Amanda off to London tomorrow but not sure if she will get there with the weather like it is, In Morecamber there is no snow just very bittley cold, however down south i’ts snowing quite bad.
Went to friends Sarah and Mick this evening and we had a laugh as normally we do because we are all mad together and Christmas Day going to be mad.
Was on my Twitter account this evening and with nearly everyone else on there we was tweetering away and keeping Davina Mcall company has she was stuck in snow driving home, in the end it took her 10 hours to get home from 11pm till 8.30am on a journey that would have taken only a few hours, from London to Kent
Well can I say I hope all the people down South have a safe week and weekend with the snow and hope we get some snow for Christmas Day and yes I am Dreaming of a White Christmas
Night
X
Friday
Today went for a walk to get my medication and somthing for a sore throat as woke with one today, watched the last ever Paul O’grady show on Channel 4 and also a week today is Christmas Day so has you would know all the TV shows on are all Christmas specials.
Heston Blumenthal Christmas Feast on C4 this man can do wonders with food love watching him.
Far as I know Amanda got to London OK but if she gets back home in time for Christmas day well that remains to be seen with the snow.
Night
X
Saturday
Well went to Lancaster and Asda with my babe Dean and friends Emma and Mickela, it was mad very busy think we sort of knew that with it being last weekend before Christmas day.
Also quick note On Monday 21st December at 9pm ITV1 please try and watch The Sun Heros of the Armed Forces Awards and show your support to the lads and lasses in the Armed Forces who won’t be home at Christmas instead will be in Iraq or Afganistan.
Been messing on my site today adding and taking stuff off so why not have a look.
Well thats enough from me today and now off to a warm bed, hope your all are warm and well.
Night
X
Sunday
Well another cold and wintery day today so stay in doors, we had a nice vistit from our friend Tamara and her Daughter Isla who is so funny and makes me laugh, they came out in the cold to see us today that’s good friends for you.
This evening Dean and I have been setting up our joint site where we can blog jointly and put the stuff we do together on there, have a look here
Our other friends Sarah and Mick have been on the road home for hours, due to the snow they had taken a few hours extra from Kings Lyn to Morecambe, they home safe now, but they snow is causing so much disruption in the UK.
I can’t undertand why when it snows Britian comes to stand still, snow has been around for has long as we have so you would think we would be better prepared for it and with having all that bad snow back in Feb 2009 you would think that the Highway agency would have plans in place ready. RANT OVER !!!
So I am wondering with the snow would I be able to get to my Cleft Palate appointment tomorrow in Manchester, I hope so not been for over 18 months.
So incase I do get to be able to go Manchester I had better go bed so.
Night
XX
Well that the Last full working week of 2009
Now go to next week here
Daily Blog 7-13 Dec 2009
Monday
Today went to town and Morrisons to get few bits, suppose to have a dear friend round but didn’t make it has her mum was in hospital so been re-arranged for tomorrow.
Sent a few Christmas Cards On Twitter using a new appilcation callled twitmascard very good too.
This evening feeling ill my stomach is bad and in pain so off to bed now.
Night
X
Tuesday
Had a bad night with my stomach even though had an early night took extra medication which I can but still felt ill feeling little better but need to take more Molicov today.
Well Busy day today, went to Lancaster with Dean, Sarah and Mick Emmerson did some Christmas shopping, went for a coffee and had a good laugh, Sarah was at the Hospital having a Biopsy taken from a lump on her tongue and hope she is OK and the results come back good and not bad news especially this time of year.
This evening again with Sarah and Mick we all went to Morrisons to get food shopping for Christmas day as we having dinner at there house but Dean and I are cooking it at there house for them and the kids Hannah and Ashley, again had a laugh and we had that much fun time went fast and we forgot some of our shopping, well never mind there again tomorrow with Amanda Busby.
Good job we had been putting saver stamps away otherwise would have cost loads got £70 worth of food and had £50 of saver stamps, so be doing that again next year.
Watched my Tuesday programmes now off to bed
Night
X
Wednesday
Well today went to Morrisons with Amanda B to get shopping and then went again later with Dean to get more shopping as can only manage a bit at a time.
My back and Hip is bad today too, also had a phone call from my local hospital with my admission day for my bladder problems, the date is 23rd December yes 2 days before the big day how bad is that, but she said my consultant wanted it done ASAP so if I refused the admission date I would end up being put to the bottom of the list and will have to wait longer, so I took it not happy but then like Dean said it’s out of the way and it’s done before the new year.
Just Chilling tonight watching TV with Dean now.
Night
X
Thursday
Well another busy day down to the bank pay the bills, go to the market for Fido’s stuff and visit friends, so this week so far has been busy no wonder I am in pain, so not doing much tomorrow.
Night
X
Friday
Well today feels like friday 13th things going wrong The Shower as stopped working and only put in last Easter, and slighty concerned about a friend who things she has no friends but she has, and also I am concerned regarding something else thats’s happened over the last few days, but they say the truth will come out in the end, my only concern is when I get an inklin about something it usually comes true, and if it does while least it will be out.
But this evening went to Emma Cuthbertson and Mickela McK for a meal and it was a nice meal too and we had a nice time think it was what we needed after the shit week we have had, roll on Monday new week and new start they say.
2010 can’t come quick enough.
Night
X
Saturday
Well as you knew the shower wasn’t working but the Electrician came today and it was the main fuse box that was faulty and when he took it apart he told us we was lucky that it hadn’t set on fire it was that knackard, wouldn’t mind it was a nice box in put in Easter 2008, anyway it’s fixed and the shower now working and now got a letter to write to Council Disabled Grants Dept has they paid for it to be installed.
This evening just chilled and watched TV the Final of X Factor was on and Stacey (Danni Minogues) was voted off tonight so tomorrows final show down will be Olly (Simon Cowells) and Joe (Cheryl Coles) I still think Joe will win even though I thought Olly would go tonight.
Night
X
Sunday
Went to Market and Morrsions for a few bits for tea tonight has we had a nice chilled out night in front of the TV X Factor Final and the winner was Joe and well done him and well done all the X Factor finalist,
Get Finalist Joe 1st Song here.
It’s good to chill with your partner and have a nice romantic evening every know and again make time for your partner away from computers and mobiles we do and it’s great to do.
Had a nice evening with my Babe Dean now off to bed.
Night
X
Now go to next week here
Daily Blog 30th Nov – 6th Dec 2009
Monday
Well today been sorting stuff for Christmas shopping and finally received my free Angels and Demons DVD which I won many weeks ago and this another one they sent so may end up with 2 who knows.
This week we both taking it easy as from next week it’s going to be busy till new year with hospital and other stuff and then of cause Christmas.
Today had a nice message from an old mate Lee about my site we used to live near each other and play together many years ago and we had some laughs, not seen him in years so been great catching up on Facebook and hopefully 1 day will meet up soon.
Also in my area the Police are celebrating 2 years of Cold Cases and still going through old cases so happen I may get justice for what happened to me when I was younger, have a look here
Tomorrow is 1st December that means countdown to Christmas with the 1st day of Advent and also means World Aids Day so please get a red ribbon and show your support.
X
Tuesday
1st Day of advent today and also World Aids Day,so the count down to Christmas begins 24 days now, and the weather has gone all winter over night here in Northwest UK freezing temperatures and windy.
Went to shops and post office and my god I thought I was going to freeze to death, so came home and been in since too cold to go anywhere now.
Off to a warm bed and watch TV
Night
X
Wednesday
Well not much today to say really, Dean was at work and meetings so spent the day watching my programmes that I had Sky Plus with Fido.
And messed about on Facebook and Twitter so pritty boring day.
Night
X
Thursday
woke up feeling like I had a cold today so not done much and relaxed in the warm, so not much to blog about sorry.
Night
X
Friday
Well was santa today delivering Christmas Cards and Presents to friends and catching up with stuff in town, my belt finally arrived today from China via Ebay.
This evening went to Sarahs to arrange Christmas Day at hers with the family for dinner, really looking forward to it.
Came home and was on Twitter and got tweeting like you do and came across this guy and he had a website link and click on it and I wasn’t exspecting what I read, it was about his little baby daughter struggle to stay alive from birth she had complications, it realy does bring home to you how lucky we are, OK yeah I have been through a lot and to hell and back in my 37 years but at least I have been giving the chance to live and turn what happened to me around, this little girl never got that chance she lost her battle at very young age and so sad for her mum and dad and all the family, there was a part in it that says “The day she passed away was our 9th wedding anniversary, the date that all three of our other children had been christened and the day ***** was due to be Christened” that was such a meaning think to say and she will never be fogotton and love to all her family RIP little Girl
On a lighter note tonight was the final of I’m a Celebrity Get Me Out Of Here tonight I predicted 3rd Place Jimmy White 2nd Place Kim Woodburn and the winner would be Gino D’Acampo, but I wanted Kim to win anyway I predicted right Gino won with Kim 2nd and Jimmy in 3rd place, well can’t have it all but well done Kim on becoming 2nd place and being such an ace Celebrity See more here
Well thats it till January when Celebrity Big Brother is on.
OK now getting off got friends coming in the morning.
Night
X
Saturday
Well more card and present delivering today and had a visit from a friend, but you know when you get a visit from someone and they don’t really want to be there well it was that kind of visit.
Went to Tesco and then Amanda’s house and back home and that all we did today,
This evening Dean went to a Polish Christmas Party in the local Catholic Church, I didn’t go as it’s part of his Charity work and I don’t want to involved in his work and it something he does on his own, He did ask me go but declined and at the time didn’t think it was at the Catholic Church until he came home and good job I didn’t go as last time I was there was for my mums Funeral and she stayed in the church over night the day before her funeral so wouldn’t have been nice really.
And besides I became ill and had miss-hap with the loo my Pancreas playing up tonight.
Night
X
Sunday
Today we have relaxed all day and just sat listerning to music and watching films.
Had a chat to people on Facebook and Twitter and arranged to meet a friend and her new baby next week, so not much to say today.
Night
X
Go now to next week here
Daily Blog 23rd – 29th Nov
Monday
Well today was funny old day my emotions where up and down, started off normal.
- Then was asked to be a witness at a friends Civil Partnership in July 2010 and I was so pleased to be asked and over the moon,
- Then got home and my other friend had to have her dog put to sleep after 10 years so sad when that happens and worse because the dog was like her child has she don’t have kids.
- Then another friend and her husband came round for a brew and we had a right laugh.
- Then I got pissed off because some friends exspect you to do all the running and when you don’t you don’t hear from them until you.
So not been a normal day for me anyway tomorrow is a new day, oh and tomorrow I am at Hospital again my 2nd Home…
Night
X
Tuesday
Well got up and a fairly good mood, Dean and I went to the Market and to see few friends before I went to hospital for my late afternoon appointment so the day was great and relaxed.
But that soon turned as got to the Royal Lancaster Infirmary for my apointment at 4pm and was told stright away that the clinic was behind 40mins so not to bad been used to waiting around anyway it was over an hour before I was seen, 2nd to last patient to go in.
Went in and the consultant did his thing and then said he wants me to have a Urinary Dynamics Test he was very good in explaining what it is, this is what it is here
Anyway on that I became very depressed and upset as this year 2009 has been all about hospitals and operations and more hospitals I need a break from all this I have been going through hospitals and operations since birth and thought as I got older it would get less but I am not so sure now.
This year alone I have been at the hospitals I say hospitals because I go to Lancaster and Manchester anyway I have been going every fortnight for an Out Patients appointment or an operation.
I am feeling so down and depressed with it how much can 1 take before it becomes to much to bare ????
I have took time out from my Facebook and MSN just not in the mood to talk to anyone.
Night
X
Wednesday
Well still feeling down and depressed about all the hospital visits and things not getting any better but Dean keeping me sprits up and telling me it’s for a reason and it will be ok in the end, just hope he right.
Anyway today Me and Dean sorted lounge out and then put up the Christmas Tree we gone red and gold this year, last year was sliver, and then we just relaxed for the day ready tomorrow with me yet again in Manchester for Hospital…this week Sarah is coming with me has Dean needs to be home for a delivery.
Hope you had a nice day and chilled out day, so off to bed need to be up very early.
Night
X
Thursday
Well up early for another hospital appointment in Manchester this week Sarah Emmerson came with me, no floods today so train was on time and seemed to be running ok.
Arrived Manchester around midday and went for dinner, didn’t buy anything this week 1 reason being I am skint, anyway arrived at the Hospital to Mr Ashleys clinic.
Today saw the 1st stage of my new teeth and how good they felt, picked the colour which is off white with a tint of pure white to give them a au natural look, and also the size they going to be a bit bigger than the ones I already have has these make me look like I’ve no teeth.
So we got home about 7pm this time and tea was ready and now chilling out with my babe Dean and little boy fido.
Night
X
Friday
Well not much to say today, had a relaxing one has with all what I have dont these last weeks days have caught up with me and my feet and legs are painful, So Dean went to Lancaster on his own and so he should has he was going for my Christmas pressie from him.
But 1 thing is bugging me why do people sit on the fence and say one thing and do the opposite and why are some people two faced suppose it’s a question that will never be answered .
So having an early night
Night
X
Saturday
Got up feeling ok feet still sore but needed to go shopping so did that and after Dean and Me went to the Cemetary to my mums grave to tidy it up and get it sorted for Christmas as we put cards n wreaths on it, then after went to our friends Shelia and Andy for a coffee and take Andy’s Birthday card round for Tuesday.
This evening been cuddling down and watching TV in the warm has too cold outside to do much else or go any where.
Night
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Sunday
Well today me and Dean just watching TV and DVDs from the comfort of our bed, well they say Sunday is a day of rest and relaxing so we do just that, besides the weather is horrid today not very nice it’s windy and raining heavy too and so cold.
Sunday lunch is in so that is us sorted for the day and evening.
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Daily Blog 9 – 22 November
Monday
Well was up at around 7am after only a few hours sleep with my Hip playing up so thought may as well get up, and when Dean got up we went to town for a few bits and then after we returned home we started to pack for our London break.
So with only having few hours sleep I am having a very early night.
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Tuesday
Hi well been packing today for our London trip tomorrow, God can’t wait for it to come so need the break, me and Dean have been through so much over the last couple of months if not the whole year, back and forth to Hospitals etc so need this break if anything.
So Won’t be blogging unless I am near a internet cafe, so enjoy your week and weekend.
Night and Bye
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Wednesday 11th – Tuesday 17th
Well was away in London for this period,
Wednesday
Hest Bank kennels arrived around 11am to take Fido for a week and then we left around 12pm for thr train to London and arrived mid afternoon, booked into the Hostel and took cases upto room and then went to look round shops etc, got Tube to city centre but on way I went flying on the tube hurt my self and Dean fought it was funny I do now but was more embrassed than anything.
So it was 11th Nov we went to White Hall to the Cenotaph to pay our respects and see the poppies that had been layed for the Soilders who have lost there lives for us in wars, while walking around and making our way to Trafalgar Square, I felt something loose and metal in my mouth so cough it out into my hand and it was my implant from my gum it had come out and I was bleeding and then onway back to room I slipped so that was 3 things in one night so best thing was to go back to room, which we did and then went to bed early as needed to be up for TV in the morning.
Thursday
Was up at 7am has needed to be at The Wright Stuff TV studio in London the studio is above a wonderful shopping centre so we was in the Live Audience and seen on TV regular through out the show which was 90 min long, from 9.15 on Channel Five daily, presented by Matthew Wright, Co-Presenter Eric Johnston and the panel for this day was Kaye Adams former Loosewomen presenter, Comedian Stephen K Amos and special Guest was Actor and film maker Nick Moran.
After that had finished I rang the Manchester hospital regarding my implant coming out they wanted me to go that friday so see consultant so told them no has was in London for a week so asked me to find a NHS dental hospital in London which I refused to do as the whole point was to go away for a week because of the operations I had in the year, so wasn’t going to ruin it, then we went shopping on Oxford Street London until later in the afternoon and then needed to be at BBC Studios in White City London to be in the audience for Harry Hill TV Burp for ITV to be aired on Saturday, we where not very happy with this part of the day, had to queue for over 2 hours outside in the cold and rain and then when we did get in we got a voucher for a free drink but it was alcholic so asked for non acholic and told it was a bottle of beer or nothing, so along with a few others we wasn’t happy as we don’t drink, in the same holding room there was many people waiting to go into the studio for Friday Night with Johnthan Ross there where treated better and where given a choice but that show is for BBC not ITV, anyway got into the studio for Harry Hill and half of the programme was pre recorded so it wasn’t as good for us sat there than what we see on TV when it’s aired.
Friday
We went to Westfields the biggest shopping centre in Europe, bought some new trainers and did a bit of shopping, went back to the room with what we had bought as took nearly all day to get round it, and when we got to the room there was around 8 Germans (2 girls 5 lads around 18 -19) they seemed ok? after this we went Christmas shopping for last few presents we needed and returned to the room and these Germans where partying and we didn’t mind but it was getting into the early hours and they where getting noiser, we never said anything but it was hard not to, I don’t have anything against Germans I have a few relations who are German.
Saturday
We got up early as was woken by the Germans being noisey again, so has we where up we went sight seeing and also went to book tickets for Priscilla Queen of the Desert for Monday the tickets should have been £65 each but with disabled consessions we got 2 tickets for £51 and they where in Stalls and not far from the main stage.
Sunday
Had another noisey night with the Germans but not as bad, today we went to London TV studios for the Krypton Factor presented by Ben Shepherd but it was another long wait again for 3 hours then nearly 2 hours in the Studio, lucky for us it was sunny and a nice day so didn’t matter too much but was still boring waiting around.
The night was the worst night ever the Germans where rude, dis-respectful and noisey but this time Dean told them to shut up and after around 1 hour they left the room and went somewhere else thank god.
Monday
Last full day before we return home,the Germans left early to return home so we knew we would have a good sleep tonight. so today we just shopped and sight seeing had an early tea tonight, then got ready to set off for the Palace Theater for Priscilla Queen of the Desert.
We arrived at the theater early but doors where open so was ok, and it started Jason Donovan was brilliant as Tick – Mitzi, Oliver Thornton has Adam – Felicia and Tony Sheldon as Bernadette, it was the nest show I had seen since seeing Graham Norton in La Cage Aux Folles
So at the end of the show Jason made a speech about the week raising money for Children In Need and they would be preforming at it on Friday 20th Nov BBC 1 from 7pm.
Tuesday
Up early and booked out and set off home enjoyed the week but so glad to be on my way home, got back around 4pm and then after Amanda Busby who had been looking after the house left we had tea and had an early night and slept great.
Wednesday
Well back to normal, Dean went to do his volunteer work at the NCBI office and I waited for Fido to be returned to us and he came back around 11.30am and was mad running round etc think he was very happy to be back home.
Went shopping today with Amanda B, as yet again I am at Hospital in Manchester tomorrow regarding my mouth, Dean staying home this time so Amanda is coming with me and we will go Christmas shopping while there.
So I hope you enjoyed reading my blog about my break in London and will blog tomorrow hopefully after getting home from Manchester.
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Thursday
Was up bright and early today to go Manchester, Amanda Busby came about 9am and then we went to train station arrived Manchester around 11.30 after having to change trains due to bad weather in the night and flooding around Windermere where the train came from click here for news on flooding.
So in Manchester very cold and windy but no rain so quite lucky went round shops as Amanda wanted Christmas shopping, had lunch and then made way to the Hospital.
Arrived at the Hospital for what I thought was a review , impressions to be taken for my new teeth and to re-book me in for another apointment to have my implant put back into my gum after it came out while away in London, however the Consultant Mr Ashley had other ideas, so he did the re-implant gave me local anaesthitic and cut my gum open and put it back in and it was so painful after, was in the hospital around 2 hours then left for train home, in pain very tired and un-happy that I had to yet again undergo another operation.
Got to train station on Oxford Road in Manchester and thought it would stright forward to get home, how wrong, the train was delayed and had to go via Wigan because of the rain and it was packed like sardines, needless to say what should of been a 1 hour journey turned into 3 hour journey to get from Manchester to Morecambe, got home around 8.30pm so was out nearly 12 hours, got in took my medication and went straight to bed to sleep.
Friday
Had a crap night sleep and was up early again to get Dean an apointment for the Doctors regarding his head aches which he is still having, so he got in for 1st thing and had his medication doubled and needs to go back in 1 month.
Went to town after with Amanda and got Christmas paper and cards and then just relaxed all day and watched Children in Need on BBC1 aswell as keeping an eye on Fido has he got a cold I think, if no better on Monday we going to take him to the Vets.
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Saturday
Well pain from mouth seems better today still sore but not as bad, so didn’t do much today apart from catch up with friends Sarah and Mick.
Then watched TV and Dean and me wrapped up all our Christmas Presents ready to give out.
So Night Night
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Sunday
Well feeling a bit down today I have a thought for the day “ If someone thinks bad of you for any reason, Don’t let it get you down because they won’t be down while they are thinking it.
Be who you want to be for your self and not what others want you to be, It’s your life live it your way as life is too short and it’s not a rehearsel, because when you go through stuff and then you step back from it you realize that if you let it get you down it will and does control your life,
Last week made me realize that even when you go away your still have the same stuff going on and I know it was only an implant coming out but if that had happend while asleep the out look would have been different with the metal screw and blood could have choke but you don’t realize that at the time.
So it’s time to forget what people think of you and enjoy your life and live it has it was your last night because 1 day it will be.
My consultant said he wished all patients where like me after all this I am still smiling I do in public but behind closed doors I don’t and he said I always make good of a bad situation.
He is right about the “bad situation” that is because there are people out there worse off than me.
So on that it’s time to say Night
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