July and August 2010
Well Last month on the 2nd July me and Dean marked my mum’s death of 10 years by putting a new ground down on her grave and making it look like a garden of heaven.
And apart from that the last few months have been a bit up and down for me to say the least, was told I could have a Cochlear implant and then few weeks later I was then told I couldn’t, and by going to see the consultant he looked into my ears to see my brain but couldn’t find it, no on a serious matter, he was a bit concerned about the stuff in my ear he is now sending me for a MRI scan on my head, but then we realised they may not do it as I have titanium implants in my jaws, I tell you my life is complicated and don’t do things by halfs.
So I rang the MRI unit and they are happy to scan me and they will put something over my jaw.
My bladder is knackered, I think a full body transplant is in order.
My Volunteer at One Voice job is good, been there now since April and enjoy it, I am Information and Community Development worker, which I meet like minded people like myself and we all have 1 thing in common we are all disabled in one way or another, and also still the Disability Access Person at the One Voice.
Last week was my 38th Birthday can’t believe in 2 years time I am 40, where does the time go, didn’t do much was ill part of the day, and a bit annoyed has some of my friends had forgotten it was my birthday and 1 said it was because it wasn’t on Facebook so I have taken the step by de-activating my Facebook, but true friends wouldn’t have needed Facebook to remind them.
Wayne
XxX
So much to do so little time.
Hi everyone,
Well the last few months have been a bit of a roller coaster and not had much time to blog, so thought I had better let you know I am still around and what I am up to these days, before I do I hope your all well and keeping strong in this climate we are all in (UK) with the job cuts and benefit changes, also my condolences go out to all those brave soldiers who have sadly died in Afghanistan since I last blogged, and respect to those still out there fighting for our freedom.
Where do I start, well the job I started at One Voice has taken off and I am doing all new things with the Disabled Access Guide it’s taken me places I would have thought and met new people, you can keep up to date with the access work I do on facebook by clicking here and if you want more information on Disability Access issues you can email them webmail@disabilityaccess.info
Dean and myself are working on doing a all new website and also mobile phone version of the guide which is generating great interest from local council and NHS.
We looking at finishing it all by next month, and will be having an official launch for it with the press and officials involved.
I am also doing Diversity work with other organization and last week was at HMP Lancaster Farms and hopefully doing work with them too.
COPD I have been having breathing problems for a few months and went to my GP and I have had test etc, last week I was told I have COPD but won’t know how bad till next week.
Cochlear implants, well has you may know I have been putting off having these done, but few weeks ago I had a test so now I am waiting on going to Preston to see specialist who deals with Cochlear implants.
Remember you can follow me on facebook now click here
I will try and keep you posted more often but it’s a busy couple of weeks ahead so may be after that.
WayneCOPD
Well was at the Doctors on Friday just gone and he wasn’t that happy with my breathing so today (Monday) I have been to the local Hospital for a Chest X-Ray.
I am worried as COPD is in my family, has some of you may know my Mum had it and my 2 aunties had it so it’s very much at the front of my mind.
I was born like my mum with a Cleft Palate and Bone problems so the Doctors and Hospital do check me regular for chest problems but this first time I have been with a complaint with my chest.
What is COPD
Chronic obstructive pulmonary disease also known as chronic obstructive lung disease, is the main term used to describe chronic lung diseases that are characterized by progressive limitations of the airflow into and out of the lungs, and increased shortness of breath as the disease progresses.
COPD, an insidious disease which is often first diagnosed after some of the lung capacity is already lost, is usually not fully reversible. It is possible to have early stages of COPD without knowing it.
The common characteristics of COPD are:
Shortness of breath:
breathlessness during normal activities
decreased exercise tolerance
Wheezing:
changes in your breathing
Chronic Cough:
excessive phlegm (mucus) production
morning “smokers cough”
Recurring respiratory infections:
bouts of bronchitis every winter
Prevention is the thing here, YES until recently I was a smoker and enjoyed it, but now I do regret starting, I know I may not have COPD but I could have it later in life so by not smoking I reduce the risk of me getting it, but if I have it then I reduce the risk of it getting hold of me by not smoking.
I could go on and on about COPD but it easier to take a look at this wonderful site Click here
And if you need to help to kick the habit Click here
Remember anyone can have COPD best to be safe than sorry.
Daily Blog 4th – 11th Jan 2010
Monday
Well today Dean has been helping Emma and Mikela move flat and I looked after there cats at our home and at same time wait for a delivery to arrive, so been a very boring day really.
Been doing my CBB Blog during the day so you can keep up to date with my CBB news here
Well got a bit on tomorrow so happen today being boring was a blessing for me.
Night
X
Tuesday
Well woke up this morning to snow every where even thou our local forecast was rain and frost, and onces again Britain has snow Britain comes to a stand still, the schools in our area have all been closed, rail services disrupted.
So yes it’s Cold and bloody wet and that just in the bedroom he he he, No serious this snow is bad here in UK we are right on the coast with Morecambe Bay and it’s like being in the Antartic at times with the bitter cold and icy wind with the snow.
What I can’t understand is why is it when the UK gets snow the rail and roads come to a halt, it’s not like we never ever had snow in the 2000 years we been on earth, anyway on the News they say it going to get worse and be like it way into late January
And what about Us Brits going out and panic buying in the supermarkets and buying loads of cat litter to spread over there drive ways.
Snow or no Snow I needed to go to the doctors and it took us nearly 1 hour to walk there where normally it takes about half hour, but got there in the end.
Well the doctor has put me on some new medications so that another 1 to add to my collection.
Epilim 200mg (2 Daily)
Mirtazapine 30mg (1 at Night)
Tramadol Hydrochloride 50mg (8 Daily)
Meloxicam 7.5 mg (1at Night)
Amitriptyline 10mg (1 at Night)
Paracetamol 500mg (8 Daily)
Tolterodine 4mg (1 at Night)
Omerprazole 20mg (2 Daily)
Creaon 100000mg (8 Daily)
Movicol 13.8g (When Needed)
Ventolin 100 (2 puffs Daily)
Nasofan Aqueous (4 puffs Daily)
Any way off to bed to keep warm.
Night
X
Wednesday
Well didn’t wake up till 13.oo (1pm) this is due to me taking my new medication last night, took it around 22.00hrs (10pm) and within about an hour I was fast asleep and then next thing I knew it was the following day and afternoon.
But thats 1st time I have had a good nights sleep in a long time so not bothered.
Today we recieved a nice call today regarding a new house / home can’t say too much until after tomorrow when they ring us back.
This evening went to Morrisons with our friends Sarah and Mick has we need to stay home tomorrow until we have recieved that important phone call.
Another Snowy and Cold day here in Morecambe like many parts in the county and on the news they say it’s going to get worse as we head to the weekend.
Off to bed now.
Night
X
Thursday
Well we stayed in all day today has we was waiting on that important phone call, and it didn’t come till after 17.00hrs (5pm) anyway it was good news and now we meeting them on Monday hope the good news continues.
But going to the area to look tomorrow to see what its like hope it’s nice and what we want.
Apart from that we not done much or been anywhere so not lot to say tonight sorry !!!
Good Night
X
Dec 28th 2009 – 31st Dec 2009
Monday
Well 1st Day of this end of year 2009 and begining of 2010 blog.
Today we went into Lancaster to see the sales and get afew bargins but there wasn’t much on, just got 2 books from Waterstones, wonder if there will be more on sale after 1st Jan.
Well still in Christmas Mood so not staying on to long.
Night
X
Tuesday
Well went shopping today for a few bits before the New Year of 2010 and how I am looking forward to it too, and you know after all these years some people still find it hard to accept me, but you know years or months I have just let it go and still became part of the circle if you get me, so now I am not bothered accept me or not it’s up to them because I am not going out of my way anymore to try and fit in. I have my Partner Dean who is my lover, best friends, soul mate, confidont, my little Fido and some bloody brilliant friends who have been there for years and been there when I have needed them and that is all that matters to me now.
Off to bed now.
Night
X
Wednesday
Today we went to see New Moon at Vue in Lancaster finally and I did feel it was very slow to start with and was a bit disapointed with it has really thought it would have been 110% better than the 1st Twilight films.
Well tomorrow is New Years Eve so that means final day of 2009 and final day of the 1st Decade of the New Millennium and I have put together my best and worst of the decade
My Personal view on The Things of the Noughtiest 2000 till 2010
Best films, The Saw & Evil Resident Films, Dan Brown Films (Da Vinci Code)
Best songs, James Blunt “Your Beautiful” Will Young “Evergreen”
Best Dramas, Red Ridings C4, Whitechapel ITV1
Best TV, the Bill, Doctor Who, Spooks & Torchwood
Best Comedy, Catharine Tate Sketch Shows (Nan) & Little Britain
Worst mistake, Both Iraq & Afghanistan Wars &
Worst person/people, Gordon Brown, Karen Matthews & the New Pope
Saddest part, Maddy McCann going missing, All the Stabbings in the UK & All the Soldiers being killed
And My Personal Highs & Lows
Best, Meeting Dean, Getting Married and Meeting new friends
Worst, Getting Married 1st time around (to a female)
Saddest, My Mum Dying in 2000
Ongoing Part, still being ill
Well I will now say good night and wish you all the very best for 2010 and hope you have a safe and happy new years eve.
Good Nightand Good Bye 2009
xXx
Daily Blog 21st Dec – 27th Dec 2009
Monday
4 days till Christmas day
Well 1st day of Christmas Week, this week will officially be the worst and stressful week for lots of people trying to get last minute gifts.
Well up early as had to travel from Morecambe to Manchester and back again for a hospital appointment, my friend Emma C was driving and I did feel sorry for her as on the way the snow was bad and the motorway was bad with this., it took around 2 and half hours to get to Manchester.
We arrived ok and going to get the ticket for the car Dean went flat on his ass couldn’t help but laugh sorry babe love you loads.
I had to go to the new Royal Manchester Children’s Hospital and I will be honest I felt un-comfortable being 37 years old and sat in a childrens hospital but will have to get used to it because that where the Cleft Palate and Lip Unit is now.
Well they said at the hospital I was OK but slightly concerned that my left side of my cleft may be opening up AGAIN but I say if it is then tough I am NOT going through any more operations on my Cleft unless its really necessary to have it done.
Now resting up as got another busy day tomorrow with Dean.
Night
X
Tuesday
Another day nearer to to Christmas, today is Tuesday and woke up to the snow even though we seen it last night. 
Well today we went to the Cemetery to put Christmas flowers on my mum’s grave and because of the snow it looked very nice for a cemetery, but also very slippery too, after there me and Dean continued our walk in the snow to the doctors for Deans appointment and then back home which was a nightmare as it was later in the day and the temp had dropped and every where had started to ice over, and trying to walk up and down hills not good….
Now chilling ready for tomorrow’s Royal Lancaster Infirmary visit so not looking for to that, I am having a Urodynamic Test, where they stick tubes up inside your penis into your bladder.
So will say Night and hope it’s not as bad with the snow tomorrow.
Night
X
Wednesday
Well was up early today because has you know I was at The Royal Lancaster Infirmary for my Urodynamic Test and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone laying on a trolley bed showing all my bottom half with 2 females (they where very nice but would have pervered males for obvious reason) stood there is bad enough, but then have 2 tubes stuck trough your Japs Eye of my Penis direct into my bladder (this called a japs eye due to the similarity between the shape of the stereotypical eye and that the opening on the penis is much like a slit) and then another tube up my back passage to my bowel, and then having water pumped direct into my bladder I tell you it was so uncomfortable and stinging alot this was due to the anesthetic injected into my penis before hand.
After the test they said it will hurt for a few days and will be hard to wee, well yeah I would have thought that and to drink plenty of fluids to prevent infection.
Anyway went shopping after for last bits for the big day which is only 2 days off, today is the last offical working day as tomorrow there is lots of places on half day work.
I will blog tomorrow which is Christmas Eve and then will be after Boxing day has spending time with my lovely partner Dean and dear friends.
Night
X
Thursday
Well today is Christmas Eve today and everything is all go, the Turkey and Pork is cook and veg is ready and we ready, presents wrapped up and we all ready now. My brilliant and loving partner Dean did a lovely thing he got a Lantern lit you for my late mum Maureen Clifford. So on that lovely note please all have a Merry Christmas and a wonderful Holiday in the US.
Night X
Christmas Day to Sunday 27th
Well Happy Christmas to you all and hope you all had a great time, well I must of been good because Santa was good to me and I got what I wanted more Bling and watches, don’t think I got anything I didn’t need this year.
Dean was happy well over the moon with his present from me a E Reader and loads of E Books, after we opened our presents and may I just say Thank you to all those who sent Cards, presents and E Cards, we got ready to go to the Emmerson for Dinner.
We went to the Emmerson who are Sarah & Mick, the 2 children are Hannah and Ashley around 11am and we had a great meal which me and Dean cooked as no room in our home for all of us so went to theres for it.
Watched TV, listerned to Music, Played games but most of all had a brilliant time and such a laugh, this is what Christmas is about.
Boxing Day
Spent most of it getting ready for our party this evening, doing food and drink, Hannah and Dean and Myself did it all and the party went with a bang, another good party had by the Clintons.
Would like to thank the following for a brilliant Christmas.
My Babe Dean Clinton without a doubt.
Sarah, Mick, Hannah and Ashley Emmerson
Amanda Busby and Samantha Busby
Emma Cuthbertson and Mikela McKie
Sheila Nolan and Andy Young
Mark and Jackie Spraggett
Tamara DeSilver, Alex and Alara
Amanda Taylor
Janet Greenwood
Tess and Steve
And to everyone else who sent cards and gifts and I hoped you all had a great Christmas too.
Sunday
We Spent chilling and watching TV, well I did but Dean slept most of it with an hangover.
Well thats it for another year just got New Year to look forward to now.
Night
XXX
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14th – 20th Dec 2009 Daily Blog
Monday
Well this is the final full week before Christmas and New Year, so come Friday some people will be glad has Work finishes and School ends until Jan 2010.
But Spare a thought for those who aren’t so lucky to be off over Christmas and also the Army lads and lasses who are serving in Iraq – Afganistan
Also just a thought that over the X Factor final weekend ITV earned quote from the Times online “ Cowell also co-produces X Factor and Britain’s Got Talent, shows that have saved ITV. The estimated cost of a 30-second advertising slot during the weekend’s X Factor final?” now we in a credit crunch and they making over a million pound for every set of adverts.
Well today we went into town wasn’t put long has weather not too good and besides that I am not feeling to good my self my back and legs playing up AGAIN!!! becoming too much again and getting me depressed, going to try and get into see doctors next week.
Well its off to bed again dosen’t seem that long since I got up.
Night
X
Tuesday
Not much to say today been in bed most of it come down with a cold so need to get rid of it before my 2 hospital apointments next week.
Had the Twitter appilcation removed from my website has it was not working right and made it look like my website was down.
Wednesday
Still got cold so staying in the warm again today, Dean at his Charity work today till 3pm so just relaxing.
Thursday
Well not up to much again today apart from shopping with Amanda and Dean for the last bits of stuff for the year, Amanda off to London tomorrow but not sure if she will get there with the weather like it is, In Morecamber there is no snow just very bittley cold, however down south i’ts snowing quite bad.
Went to friends Sarah and Mick this evening and we had a laugh as normally we do because we are all mad together and Christmas Day going to be mad.
Was on my Twitter account this evening and with nearly everyone else on there we was tweetering away and keeping Davina Mcall company has she was stuck in snow driving home, in the end it took her 10 hours to get home from 11pm till 8.30am on a journey that would have taken only a few hours, from London to Kent
Well can I say I hope all the people down South have a safe week and weekend with the snow and hope we get some snow for Christmas Day and yes I am Dreaming of a White Christmas
Night
X
Friday
Today went for a walk to get my medication and somthing for a sore throat as woke with one today, watched the last ever Paul O’grady show on Channel 4 and also a week today is Christmas Day so has you would know all the TV shows on are all Christmas specials.
Heston Blumenthal Christmas Feast on C4 this man can do wonders with food love watching him.
Far as I know Amanda got to London OK but if she gets back home in time for Christmas day well that remains to be seen with the snow.
Night
X
Saturday
Well went to Lancaster and Asda with my babe Dean and friends Emma and Mickela, it was mad very busy think we sort of knew that with it being last weekend before Christmas day.
Also quick note On Monday 21st December at 9pm ITV1 please try and watch The Sun Heros of the Armed Forces Awards and show your support to the lads and lasses in the Armed Forces who won’t be home at Christmas instead will be in Iraq or Afganistan.
Been messing on my site today adding and taking stuff off so why not have a look.
Well thats enough from me today and now off to a warm bed, hope your all are warm and well.
Night
X
Sunday
Well another cold and wintery day today so stay in doors, we had a nice vistit from our friend Tamara and her Daughter Isla who is so funny and makes me laugh, they came out in the cold to see us today that’s good friends for you.
This evening Dean and I have been setting up our joint site where we can blog jointly and put the stuff we do together on there, have a look here
Our other friends Sarah and Mick have been on the road home for hours, due to the snow they had taken a few hours extra from Kings Lyn to Morecambe, they home safe now, but they snow is causing so much disruption in the UK.
I can’t undertand why when it snows Britian comes to stand still, snow has been around for has long as we have so you would think we would be better prepared for it and with having all that bad snow back in Feb 2009 you would think that the Highway agency would have plans in place ready. RANT OVER !!!
So I am wondering with the snow would I be able to get to my Cleft Palate appointment tomorrow in Manchester, I hope so not been for over 18 months.
So incase I do get to be able to go Manchester I had better go bed so.
Night
XX
Well that the Last full working week of 2009
Now go to next week here
Daily Blog 7-13 Dec 2009
Monday
Today went to town and Morrisons to get few bits, suppose to have a dear friend round but didn’t make it has her mum was in hospital so been re-arranged for tomorrow.
Sent a few Christmas Cards On Twitter using a new appilcation callled twitmascard very good too.
This evening feeling ill my stomach is bad and in pain so off to bed now.
Night
X
Tuesday
Had a bad night with my stomach even though had an early night took extra medication which I can but still felt ill feeling little better but need to take more Molicov today.
Well Busy day today, went to Lancaster with Dean, Sarah and Mick Emmerson did some Christmas shopping, went for a coffee and had a good laugh, Sarah was at the Hospital having a Biopsy taken from a lump on her tongue and hope she is OK and the results come back good and not bad news especially this time of year.
This evening again with Sarah and Mick we all went to Morrisons to get food shopping for Christmas day as we having dinner at there house but Dean and I are cooking it at there house for them and the kids Hannah and Ashley, again had a laugh and we had that much fun time went fast and we forgot some of our shopping, well never mind there again tomorrow with Amanda Busby.
Good job we had been putting saver stamps away otherwise would have cost loads got £70 worth of food and had £50 of saver stamps, so be doing that again next year.
Watched my Tuesday programmes now off to bed
Night
X
Wednesday
Well today went to Morrisons with Amanda B to get shopping and then went again later with Dean to get more shopping as can only manage a bit at a time.
My back and Hip is bad today too, also had a phone call from my local hospital with my admission day for my bladder problems, the date is 23rd December yes 2 days before the big day how bad is that, but she said my consultant wanted it done ASAP so if I refused the admission date I would end up being put to the bottom of the list and will have to wait longer, so I took it not happy but then like Dean said it’s out of the way and it’s done before the new year.
Just Chilling tonight watching TV with Dean now.
Night
X
Thursday
Well another busy day down to the bank pay the bills, go to the market for Fido’s stuff and visit friends, so this week so far has been busy no wonder I am in pain, so not doing much tomorrow.
Night
X
Friday
Well today feels like friday 13th things going wrong The Shower as stopped working and only put in last Easter, and slighty concerned about a friend who things she has no friends but she has, and also I am concerned regarding something else thats’s happened over the last few days, but they say the truth will come out in the end, my only concern is when I get an inklin about something it usually comes true, and if it does while least it will be out.
But this evening went to Emma Cuthbertson and Mickela McK for a meal and it was a nice meal too and we had a nice time think it was what we needed after the shit week we have had, roll on Monday new week and new start they say.
2010 can’t come quick enough.
Night
X
Saturday
Well as you knew the shower wasn’t working but the Electrician came today and it was the main fuse box that was faulty and when he took it apart he told us we was lucky that it hadn’t set on fire it was that knackard, wouldn’t mind it was a nice box in put in Easter 2008, anyway it’s fixed and the shower now working and now got a letter to write to Council Disabled Grants Dept has they paid for it to be installed.
This evening just chilled and watched TV the Final of X Factor was on and Stacey (Danni Minogues) was voted off tonight so tomorrows final show down will be Olly (Simon Cowells) and Joe (Cheryl Coles) I still think Joe will win even though I thought Olly would go tonight.
Night
X
Sunday
Went to Market and Morrsions for a few bits for tea tonight has we had a nice chilled out night in front of the TV X Factor Final and the winner was Joe and well done him and well done all the X Factor finalist,
Get Finalist Joe 1st Song here.
It’s good to chill with your partner and have a nice romantic evening every know and again make time for your partner away from computers and mobiles we do and it’s great to do.
Had a nice evening with my Babe Dean now off to bed.
Night
X
Now go to next week here
Daily Blog 30th Nov – 6th Dec 2009
Monday
Well today been sorting stuff for Christmas shopping and finally received my free Angels and Demons DVD which I won many weeks ago and this another one they sent so may end up with 2 who knows.
This week we both taking it easy as from next week it’s going to be busy till new year with hospital and other stuff and then of cause Christmas.
Today had a nice message from an old mate Lee about my site we used to live near each other and play together many years ago and we had some laughs, not seen him in years so been great catching up on Facebook and hopefully 1 day will meet up soon.
Also in my area the Police are celebrating 2 years of Cold Cases and still going through old cases so happen I may get justice for what happened to me when I was younger, have a look here
Tomorrow is 1st December that means countdown to Christmas with the 1st day of Advent and also means World Aids Day so please get a red ribbon and show your support.
X
Tuesday
1st Day of advent today and also World Aids Day,so the count down to Christmas begins 24 days now, and the weather has gone all winter over night here in Northwest UK freezing temperatures and windy.
Went to shops and post office and my god I thought I was going to freeze to death, so came home and been in since too cold to go anywhere now.
Off to a warm bed and watch TV
Night
X
Wednesday
Well not much today to say really, Dean was at work and meetings so spent the day watching my programmes that I had Sky Plus with Fido.
And messed about on Facebook and Twitter so pritty boring day.
Night
X
Thursday
woke up feeling like I had a cold today so not done much and relaxed in the warm, so not much to blog about sorry.
Night
X
Friday
Well was santa today delivering Christmas Cards and Presents to friends and catching up with stuff in town, my belt finally arrived today from China via Ebay.
This evening went to Sarahs to arrange Christmas Day at hers with the family for dinner, really looking forward to it.
Came home and was on Twitter and got tweeting like you do and came across this guy and he had a website link and click on it and I wasn’t exspecting what I read, it was about his little baby daughter struggle to stay alive from birth she had complications, it realy does bring home to you how lucky we are, OK yeah I have been through a lot and to hell and back in my 37 years but at least I have been giving the chance to live and turn what happened to me around, this little girl never got that chance she lost her battle at very young age and so sad for her mum and dad and all the family, there was a part in it that says “The day she passed away was our 9th wedding anniversary, the date that all three of our other children had been christened and the day ***** was due to be Christened” that was such a meaning think to say and she will never be fogotton and love to all her family RIP little Girl
On a lighter note tonight was the final of I’m a Celebrity Get Me Out Of Here tonight I predicted 3rd Place Jimmy White 2nd Place Kim Woodburn and the winner would be Gino D’Acampo, but I wanted Kim to win anyway I predicted right Gino won with Kim 2nd and Jimmy in 3rd place, well can’t have it all but well done Kim on becoming 2nd place and being such an ace Celebrity See more here
Well thats it till January when Celebrity Big Brother is on.
OK now getting off got friends coming in the morning.
Night
X
Saturday
Well more card and present delivering today and had a visit from a friend, but you know when you get a visit from someone and they don’t really want to be there well it was that kind of visit.
Went to Tesco and then Amanda’s house and back home and that all we did today,
This evening Dean went to a Polish Christmas Party in the local Catholic Church, I didn’t go as it’s part of his Charity work and I don’t want to involved in his work and it something he does on his own, He did ask me go but declined and at the time didn’t think it was at the Catholic Church until he came home and good job I didn’t go as last time I was there was for my mums Funeral and she stayed in the church over night the day before her funeral so wouldn’t have been nice really.
And besides I became ill and had miss-hap with the loo my Pancreas playing up tonight.
Night
X
Sunday
Today we have relaxed all day and just sat listerning to music and watching films.
Had a chat to people on Facebook and Twitter and arranged to meet a friend and her new baby next week, so not much to say today.
Night
X
Go now to next week here
Daily Blog 23rd – 29th Nov
Monday
Well today was funny old day my emotions where up and down, started off normal.
- Then was asked to be a witness at a friends Civil Partnership in July 2010 and I was so pleased to be asked and over the moon,
- Then got home and my other friend had to have her dog put to sleep after 10 years so sad when that happens and worse because the dog was like her child has she don’t have kids.
- Then another friend and her husband came round for a brew and we had a right laugh.
- Then I got pissed off because some friends exspect you to do all the running and when you don’t you don’t hear from them until you.
So not been a normal day for me anyway tomorrow is a new day, oh and tomorrow I am at Hospital again my 2nd Home…
Night
X
Tuesday
Well got up and a fairly good mood, Dean and I went to the Market and to see few friends before I went to hospital for my late afternoon appointment so the day was great and relaxed.
But that soon turned as got to the Royal Lancaster Infirmary for my apointment at 4pm and was told stright away that the clinic was behind 40mins so not to bad been used to waiting around anyway it was over an hour before I was seen, 2nd to last patient to go in.
Went in and the consultant did his thing and then said he wants me to have a Urinary Dynamics Test he was very good in explaining what it is, this is what it is here
Anyway on that I became very depressed and upset as this year 2009 has been all about hospitals and operations and more hospitals I need a break from all this I have been going through hospitals and operations since birth and thought as I got older it would get less but I am not so sure now.
This year alone I have been at the hospitals I say hospitals because I go to Lancaster and Manchester anyway I have been going every fortnight for an Out Patients appointment or an operation.
I am feeling so down and depressed with it how much can 1 take before it becomes to much to bare ????
I have took time out from my Facebook and MSN just not in the mood to talk to anyone.
Night
X
Wednesday
Well still feeling down and depressed about all the hospital visits and things not getting any better but Dean keeping me sprits up and telling me it’s for a reason and it will be ok in the end, just hope he right.
Anyway today Me and Dean sorted lounge out and then put up the Christmas Tree we gone red and gold this year, last year was sliver, and then we just relaxed for the day ready tomorrow with me yet again in Manchester for Hospital…this week Sarah is coming with me has Dean needs to be home for a delivery.
Hope you had a nice day and chilled out day, so off to bed need to be up very early.
Night
X
Thursday
Well up early for another hospital appointment in Manchester this week Sarah Emmerson came with me, no floods today so train was on time and seemed to be running ok.
Arrived Manchester around midday and went for dinner, didn’t buy anything this week 1 reason being I am skint, anyway arrived at the Hospital to Mr Ashleys clinic.
Today saw the 1st stage of my new teeth and how good they felt, picked the colour which is off white with a tint of pure white to give them a au natural look, and also the size they going to be a bit bigger than the ones I already have has these make me look like I’ve no teeth.
So we got home about 7pm this time and tea was ready and now chilling out with my babe Dean and little boy fido.
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Friday
Well not much to say today, had a relaxing one has with all what I have dont these last weeks days have caught up with me and my feet and legs are painful, So Dean went to Lancaster on his own and so he should has he was going for my Christmas pressie from him.
But 1 thing is bugging me why do people sit on the fence and say one thing and do the opposite and why are some people two faced suppose it’s a question that will never be answered .
So having an early night
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Saturday
Got up feeling ok feet still sore but needed to go shopping so did that and after Dean and Me went to the Cemetary to my mums grave to tidy it up and get it sorted for Christmas as we put cards n wreaths on it, then after went to our friends Shelia and Andy for a coffee and take Andy’s Birthday card round for Tuesday.
This evening been cuddling down and watching TV in the warm has too cold outside to do much else or go any where.
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Sunday
Well today me and Dean just watching TV and DVDs from the comfort of our bed, well they say Sunday is a day of rest and relaxing so we do just that, besides the weather is horrid today not very nice it’s windy and raining heavy too and so cold.
Sunday lunch is in so that is us sorted for the day and evening.
blog tomorrow
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